*Note: this was a school assignment
When something becomes too overwhelming
and consuming, it is only natural for that person to declare
independence from that very thing, whether it is a person, object, or
feeling.
It is self-evident that all people are
allowed to be confident, that they should be able to have faith in
themselves, that these are what all people are entitled to and are
among the unalienable rights. Whenever any kind of feeling or
characteristic becomes destructive and an obstacle to becoming
successful, it is the right of the person to abolish it. Social
awkwardness and a low self esteem may make up who the person is, but
it is my duty to remove a constraint that has done the following
hurtful things.
It has stopped me from achieving my
goals and dreams by making me doubt myself.
It has made me indecisive and miss many
rare chances.
It has been the reason of my
unwillingness to do things in public, directly leading to many long
and unbearable lectures and ending with a parent severely and utterly
disappointed.
It has refused to allow me to seem like
I know what I'm doing, going as far as leading the dance teacher to
assume that I am incapable of performing the most simple routines.
It is responsible for making me
unconfident in something I've practiced for five years.
It is responsible for making people
think I am dependent on others.
It has caused stuttering, sweaty palms
and horribly humiliating situations.
It has forced me to make many random
and embarrassing noises because of the absence of words to fill
silences.
It has stopped me from asserting my
opinions.
It has caused people to think I am weak
and don't have any opinions.
It has caused many lifelong
misunderstandings because I am too scared to defend and speak up for
myself.
It has caused people to think I'm dumb
because of my incapability of forming coherent sentences after being
called on in class by the teacher.
It has caused anxiety at the thought of
calling someone on the phone.
It has been in the way of socializing
and interfered with the process of making friends, making it
unreasonably difficult to start conversations with strangers,
acquaintances and even old friends.
It is the reason why I can only find
solace in the company of books, music, and my laptop.
It is the reason why I have trouble
talking to people, even on the internet.
It is the reason behind my lack of a
social life.
It has been a huge hindrance and
obstacle in accomplishing many things that would have been beneficial
to everyone.
After all of these setbacks and
troubles, I have attempted to reach mutual agreements, but all of
them were refused. I have attempted to live with it, and make it a
part of me, but something so rude and so cruel is unfit to be part of
someone's personality. None of my attempts have worked, and all of my
attempts have been ignored, and therefore, I must denounce this
relationship.
I, Fefe, do, for the good of my
happiness and for my development as a productive and functional
person, solemnly declare, that I have every right to be, and will be,
free of social awkwardness, that I will have nothing more to do with
it, that I will never again have a lack of confidence and to do all
things which independent persons have the right to do.
